Chocolate

There it is.
That bar of chocolate.
The one I've sworn off.
Can't touch it.
Shouldn't look at it.
Shouldn't imagine how it tastes.

Got a diversion, but even the diversion makes me think of...
Chocolate.

You're sitting there, smiling, talking to them.
You're standing in front of me, and I can't talk to you.
I ask you a question, but it doesn't violate the "rules".
Need to talk to you.
Shouldn't imagine what it'd be like,
But I do.
Shouldn't imagine your smirk,
Yet I do.

The bar of chocolate's still in the fridge. Untouched. Not even taken out of the plastic bag.
The best way to beat temptation is to run away from it.
But how do you run away from what's in your mind?

Help me.

House Faces His Addiction

One week without Vicodin was the deal.

What do you do when you've got an addiction?
The pleasure's all gone; what's left is more need.

Can't get enough of you, can't stand myself when I realise that I need you.
And I get so disappointed.
With you.
With myself.


One week without you.

Will there be withdrawals?
Hallucinations?

Pain. Of THAT, at least, I'm sure.

"Don't let the sun catch you cryin,
Cryin at my front door.
You done daddy dirty,
He sure don't want you no more.

You can cry, cry, cry,
Yes baby, you can wail.
Beat your head on the pavement,
Till the man comes and throws you in jail.

Whoa, you know you done me dirty now
And I just don't want you no more."
- Ray Charles


But I need to know that I'm not an addict.
That I can walk away any time.
Please.

The Rainbow Connection

"Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
For lovers, for dreamers and me."
- Kenny Ascher and Paul Williams

Did you know that people send electric signals with their brains? That's what I found out after E came back from her friend's "brain experiment".

I think, in the future, people might be communicating with "brainphones"-these new-fangled inventions which allow people to send and receive the electrical impulses from their brains. The end of miscommunication!

Maybe that's what happens when people have "chemistry".

The electro-magnetic fields of their brains connect, and each brain receives the other's electrical impulses.

B2: "Are you thinkin' what I'm thinkin' B1?"
B1 goes Boing
B1: "Yes, I do believe I'm thinkin' what you're thinkin' B2!"
Both go Boing

I think some lovers have found their connection, some dreamers too.
Maybe I will, some day.

I should do some R&D into this "brainphone" thing.
Do you think it'd make me the new Bill Gates?
Haha! Didn't think so either.

But if I did manage to get it up and running, I think I'd call it: The Rainbow Connection.

"Does a muse amuse?"
She mused, bemused.

Musing of the day: Which part of the body do they keep your soul?

Abraham Tested

Why does God test us?

He gives her dad Chronic Myeloid Leukemia.
He makes her dad go through a heart op.
He makes her go through a miscarriage, then gives her a child, only to make that child severely sick just after 1 month's joy.

He makes Abraham agree to do the one act that causes the biggest hurt to a parent.
"Then God said, 'Take your son, your ownly song, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.'"
Genesis 22:2
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
James 1:2-4

"'Do not lay a hand on the boy,' he said. Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son."
Genesis 22:12
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him."
James 1:12

"I will surely bless ou and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take posession of the cities of their enemies, and through your offspring all nations on earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me."
Genesis 22:17-18

Why does God test us?

He gives her dad cancer to heal the cancer of his soul
He makes her dad go through a heart op to open his heart up to Jesus
He takes what is most precious from us so that we will never be in danger of losing what should be most precious to us: our relationship with Him
He breaks us apart so that He can piece us back better
He cripples us so that He can give us wings



And then, we fly back to Him