Rainbows

Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, for lovers, for dreamers, for me.

Has it been too long since I last blogged? I find myself in a position that I am not used to - I am lost for words.

There is so much I want to say to You. Thank You. I love You. You are wonderful, wonderful to me. But words fail. I am bewildered, in awe, speechless.

Where do I begin? It started with a conversation.

We asked: "Would you genetically engineer your unborn child if he/she were diagnosed with Down Syndrome?"

I would have.

I do not hope for a great life. Just a normal one will do. And that is also the dream I would have for my child.

But as I was reminded through a little girl's words tonight: "It's not what I want, but what God wants."

In the light of tragedy and personal pain, it is hard to remember that we have a good God.

But You are good, whether I remember it or not.

As the sepia stage lights fade, I almost hear Your voice: "Each cut in the diamond reflects the rainbows within."

It was so for the Chinese songwriter, it was so for Nick and it will be so for me, if only I let You do Your work in me.

Your rainbows are promises.