When I Lost My Smile

Dear God,

I miss You. You don't know what an empty, restless, soul-less life I lead when You're not the centre of it; when You're not what occupies my thoughts; when I live as though You're dead.

Today, M said that she wouldn't know how to live on if her husband died.

That's love.

I keep saying that I love You. Every week. So why did Gerard's song cut so deep?

"Why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you know?

Why do you sing hallelujah
If it means nothing to ya?
Why do you sing with me at all?"

I miss You so so so much.

Only You know how much I need You back to anchor my life.

These days, I can't smile without feeling how empty my smile is.

God, please get rid of these distractions. Please help me to come back to You.

"Help me to sing Hallelujah
To bring all glory to ya
Let me live my life for you."